The assorted self

I kept myself writing
Until my heart bled
Until my last word died
Until my thoughts drained
Until my notions lost meaning

I kept myself alive
Until my last breath
Until my last heartbeat
Until my last dream perished
Until my blues killed my senses

I kept myself forgiving
Until my pride got bruised
Until my hurts hurt my trust
Until my womb swirled in pain
Until my weeps died in the silence

I kept myself thriving
Until the await in me prospered
Until the ambivalence conquered me
Until the naked desires forgot its route
Until the deep solitude failed to cheer me

I kept myself awake
Until the longing for you prevailed
Until the last star in the galaxy died
Until the dream of my dear embraced me
Until the first ray of dawn touched the Earth

I kept myself blooming
Until the last flower blossomed
Until the last brown leaf withered
Until the goodbye of the last ray of sunlight
Until the smallest crescent moon kissed the sky

I kept myself singing
Until the songs lost the rhythm
Until the last track died in my throat
Until the expressions forgot the meaning
Until the dreamer’s dream dozed in the dales

I kept myself smiling
Until the loneliness burned me
Until the ache of my heart crushed me
Until the valley of despair destroyed me
Until the last tear drops oozed from my soul

I kept myself enduring
Until my soul caressed my love
Until my beloved kissed my wounds
Until my mind revived with thy thoughts
Until my moments resumed to consciousness

I kept myself hopeful
As these tears won’t be there forever
As these clouds won’t be there forever
As these dejections won’t be there forever
As these melancholies won’t be there forever